I don’t know what it is, but something today just isn’t right. Maybe it’s inside me. Perhaps I am on some big power struggle between two versions of myself. One got sleep last night. The other one did not. This makes me wonder, what it is I want… It is rare I ask myself this question. Justin, what do you want? Do you want to have a successful website? Do you want to be dating people? Do you want to have a fast computer? Do you want to sleep? Do you want to go to school? All of these things are valid and very good questions any teenager may ask themselves on a day to day basis. I, however, find myself asking: are you happy? are you content? is there anything I can do for YOU. This leads to helping people with computer problems, working for my highschool, going places I never really intended on going, and prayer that this is what I am supposed to be doing.
That brings me to my next point of important news on the day. The coolest Pastor we have had in my years at church has decided to leave us. He has been with us since before he became a pastor. He actually started off as a Vicar for us while he was still in seminary. The guy has an amazing personality, amazing contact with all people, and an amazing ability to preach. I am sure he will do just fine in Arizona starting a new church. It still bites. We have lost all 3 of the pastors I grew up with in the last 4 years. This comes after stability for about 14 years of my life. Maybe it was that I was lucky the first 14 years of my life to be in such a stable enviroment. Maybe, stability is what we all need?
That brings me to my last point. Has anyone been paying any attention to that graph down at the bottom of my page? I am sure they have because it is the only thing worth following over time. Either way, I have noticed that recently my mood has become relatively stable. This is comforting but concerning non the less. Is it school making it stable? Is it routine making it stable? Is it stress making it stable? Is it a person making it stable? All of these things I do not know… but my mood right now isn’t all that high. That’s what caused me to notice it in the first place. Luckily, I have Animal Crossing to play on the GameCube. The game rocks, animals rock! It’s 11:11, I’ve made my wish. Later.