So I don’t know what happened. Something completely reversed itself between last night and today.
I woke up this morning not really in the mood to go to church. I went anyway and said good morning to Nikki and Amber. Also purchased some Krispy Kreme Donuts. I don’t remember why, but I did anyway… I suppose it will raise money for the youth group either way.
Sunday school did nothing for me. I didn’t even really want to be there either. I don’t know what it was. The topic was kind of right, but eh… So when it was done, I went upstairs to go to Genesis. I started walking down there and then thought about joining Amber and Nikki in sanctuary, but I didn’t want to do that either. So I got in my car and drove. I ended up at the park again. I did prayer, a little self reflection, and a little listening to christian radio singing along. I then put on my skates and went around the parking lot a few times.
I’ve come to realize I need a helmet. It’s a little scary to be rollerblading on pavement at high speeds and start to lose your balance. I know I can catch myself, but even then, I risk banging my head. Not that I haven’t done that before mind you… I don’t know, it just feels like that’s out of my control, where as, a helmet is in my control. Either way.
I then got back in my car and just kind of stared. I don’t know what kind of chemicals I am missing in my brain and what I need to eat to correct the problem. Perhaps more meat, mean seems to make me happy. Maybe its vegetables, don’t really know. Seems like some kind of imbalance though. After a little while longer of watching about 20 dogs come and go and mark the same post, I decided it was time to head somewhere else. I ended up heading home the long way.
Then it was time to watch cars. Cars went around and around and for awhile my driver was winning again. But again, the yellow flag caught him inbetween pitstops and that set him back again. That’s two weeks in a row. Either way, I like this car he is driving. He is now unofficially 6th in points, moving up… that’s all that matters.
And now I’m here.