Rinsefirst

This is a correction to the post earlier today: Nikki is 1-1 and Amber is 0-2. Shows how I can get things wrong if I don’t look before I type.

Work continues, MSA hasn’t burnt down, and my Chess playing ability has apparently gone down hill… I can’t even beat a depth 3 computer. That’s sad… I should be able to beat a depth 3 easily.

Life is good and interesting. Church was good today. The music was the right music. The sermon was pretty tight. The mood was right. Things felt right at church this time around, last time, unlike wednesday where the place felt weird for some reason. Couldn’t figure it out though.

Spent all afternoon watching Nascar with Amber, Amy, John, Mellisa, and my dad. It was a nail biter again. Richard had me at the beginning. Then I had him for most of the middle, then he had me at the end, giving him the win. That makes him 2-0, Nikki 0-2, and everyone else 1-1. I’ll have to fight my way back now. To bad Jeff had to lose a piston towards the end, and the black flag wasn’t very nice either.

On the upside of things… Busch did manage to take 3rd. Giving me the continuation of a streak I was looking for. It turns out I probably should have picked Jimmy for that, but I think I’ll wait a little bit before I pick Jimmy to hopefully help push my lead up a little bit later. He’s got to win a race here soon anyway. The question is, who do I pick for next week? Guess I’ll have to do my research.

Well, my task list says I have things to do, so I’m going to do them. Laterz all.

I have long believed that one’s mood is controlled by oneself. If you want to be in a bad mood, you are. If you want to be happy, you can be. However, with this I believe we give control of our emotions to others as well. So, for example, I have decided to let Amber control many of my emotions where it makes sense for her to do so. I’m nost sure anything I’m saying makes sense, but it feels like it needs to get written.

The interesting thing about this emotional thing is when humans start to make irrational decisions about how they will feel. For example, I woke up this morning with a decision I made within seconds of waking up. I decided I was going to hate today. I decided I was upset. I decided I had things to do. I decided that I just didn’t care. In fact, for a brief moment, I just didn’t want to move. There was no point. Why get out of bed when you know your going to dread today. It’s a horrible way to wake up.

But why would I dread today? What reason do I have? Is it because nascar polling is on in an hour? Is it because I have a task list of about 15 to 20 things to do? Is it because people want to do things tonight? Is it because I’m not in control of my environment. My leadership has fallen to some degree. It used to be that people called me on Fridays and Saturdays to ask me what’s going on. Now, it’s Amber tells me what’s going on. I used to go out with groups of 5 to ten people, sometimes more. Now I’m lucky if I get 4. I don’t feel like I’ve lost friends. I don’t feel like anyone really changed. I know that a lot of it has to do with college and the fact that many of us are more than 30 minutes away from each other now. I know that I’m busy with Amber quite often, and I know money has become more of an issue for me lately. I know that what life has turned into isn’t a bad thing, and I know that life doesn’t always go like we think it should.

So with all that said, why am I sitting at my computer dreading today. What is it that I have to dread. I will more than likely see the love the of my life tonight. I will probably go racing with John at the MOA which sounds like fun to me. Why is it though, that it just doesn’t seem to matter.

Last night though, I had fun. Amber and I went out on a dinner double date if you will (although I don’t think anyone called it that). Dan and Sheila, and Amber and I attended what would be my first trip to Chili’s in Woodbury. Just like the Chili’s in Mapplewood, the food was good, service was good, price was resonable. All in all a good time. I enjoy going out with Dan, he’s a down to earth guy and other than computers, we can for the most part find things to talk about. On top the of that, Sheila was pretty cool. She sits so straight, which just amazes me to no end, but still cool. I hope she didn’t feel to out of place last night.

In some other news, I got a Pocket PC which I’m working on writing some syncing software for. My goal is to be able to put my Calendar and Task list online.  There is a joke about being able to book me online. We’ll see about that.

So I’m going to get back to other things for a little while while I figure out what life is going to throw my way next. For now, fair winds.

JR Computer Associates Continues to grow, sometimes at scary rates. We purchased 2 new servers (yes i said 2) from Dell today. Not sure what that means to the rest of the world. Maybe.. well, no maybe. It means that we have 2 more servers coming. Growth, gotta love it.

 Other news: Church tonight. G2G, laterz all.

It was a great weekend for me. Saturday, I cleaned, which I was in the mood to do. I cleaned out the inside of my semi sick computer. I cleaned my bedroom floor. I’m missing a purple thing for my vaccuum cleaner, but other than that it was a good day of clean physical labor.

Today it was the Daytona 500. My two fantasy drivers kicked in places 1 and 2, while my rookie driver didn’t do so hot. I beat my dad for an opening win, but next week… It’s going to be tough. I face Richard, who also looked strong today, so…

In other news, Amber has a survey on her website that you should all go fill out so that she get’s an A in her class. So give her a hand and go fill it out.

For me, I’m going back to work. Laterz.

Good: The Nascar Auction came to an end. I ended up with Gordan and Busch. Not to shabby. The bidding at the end was intense. I was impressed at how everyone took part. I can’t wait to see if it stays that way the rest of the season. To kick things off, I might just need to have a Daytona party here… But, we’ll see.

Bad: This morning I woke to find my computer frozen

Good: It rebooted

Bad: It froze again 15 minutes later.

Good: I found the problem

Bad: It was the fan on my graphics card that had blown to bits.

Good: I got my Math Homework done

Bad: I have clients that need things done

Good: I got 98% of SPCPA done.

Bad: I didn’t finish

Good: I love my girlfriend and even though it’s trying sometimes, we always work through it.

Bad: I forgot to get a DVD to church for tonight

Good: I made it home

Bad: My graphics card no longer works at all

Good: I have a spare to use in the meantime

Bad: The spare doesn’t support directx 9.0

Good: I don’t play games

Bad: I need to buy a new one

Good: I’ll be up to date

That’s life of the last 24 hours for ya. Overall all though, considering my nice graphics card just fried, I’m in a pretty good mood. You should see how burnt my heat sink is. Eh, what can ya do.

For now, it’s back to work or maybe I’ll head to bed… Gotta send 1 email first.